This post is simply an announcement of a big life choice. Ever since I was a teenager right up until I hit 30 I have been in, what I call, ‘pit stop’ jobs. Constantly.
The goal at the beginnimg was to just get some money and then try and figure out my passions and go from there. I would get to the point where the job would bore me then I’d move on. Unfortunately that viscous cycle continued for 15+ years. Some jobs I thought would help bring out the best in me only brought out the worst, others I hated but then fell in too deep and couldn’t find a way out.
Either way you looked at it, the problem was the wrong attitude searching for the dream job that would make me happy. So what if I had qualifications in IT or I was a supervisor in the catering industry previously? What mattered should not have been driven by money which it was for such a very long time. It should have been finding what makes me tick, what makes me happy outside of work, what my dreams were and living life that way.
Instead it was not. I am a full time mum for now and when I’m done having more of the little blighters I will be returning to work. Something that for a long time has been pushed to the back of mind as the mere idea of going back to IT terrified me, has recently changed.
Because I choose to not go down that path again. It dawned on me in recent weeks that if I don’t want to get any old job just to help pay the bills then I won’t. If I want to continue with my writing then I should go and look for related work there. Not in IT, not in bakery, not in that bar job down the road as that’s the only place who will hire me. I choose to look out for my future happiness in my career and nothing has pleased me more than writing my projects and blogging to the world about their progress.
I look back on my career and wish I wasn’t so stressed out by the office politics, I wish I wouldn’t have been petty or pedantic but I am so lucky to be in this position today.
I had to share this on my blog as it’s shifted my perspective somewhat and now the thought of going to find work excites me. I know I previously signed up for freelance work but the truth is I cannot dedicate much time to it and as a result I’ve not continued down that path. I would rather wait until I’m in a better routine with my ‘work’ hours. A couple of hours every evening is not enough for me to achieve work happiness. It’s going to be a long haul before I get there…but I know I will get there one day with my new attitude.