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The Perfect Game

My lovely husband’s short story (unsure if it’s based on real events!)

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I went to pick up the ball for the last throw. I’ve never bowled like this before, eleven strikes down and I just need this one more for the game. The sweat drips down my forehead as I try to focus my line. The sound of the crowd cheering runs down to a dull whine. Everything is becoming blurry. I need to throw now or I’ll loose my track. I raise my arm back and throw down with a little bit of spin.

It’s going wide.

It’s hitting the gutter!

In the last second it teeters back into the ally. It hit’s the middle right pin and nearly of of them go flying.

Nearly all.

The front and last pin wobbles on it’s base. Another pin roles casually into it and knocks it over.

A perfect Game. The roar of the crowd it overwhelming, as I fall to my knees…

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It goes wrong when everything feels right.
You have thoughts, feelings and expectations and all of a sudden they get shattered. Things change all the time whether you notice or not. Whether you like it or not.

How do you let go of hatred? It is built into us all, hard wired into our DNA. Fight or flight. Your choice.


As it goes on thoughts and feelings manifest into a black hole. And what for? What changed?

More time.

It is easy to hold onto hate, it fuels us, floods the brain with feelings that could pass off as positivity where actually it slowly kills us. But you don’t realise everyone else hates too.

We are only human.

No one can hold onto that much hate, life is too short to intentionally suffer internally.

What possible words could make everything better? What is your end goal? Do you know why you’re still doing this?

You miss feeling normal, you miss sharing life and it’s ever changing state. But you’re stuck. That’s ok. You can still be helped.

And then you realise.

Just let it go.

Words don’t make things better, hate doesn’t fix things. Change your mind and it’s thinking before it is too late. Though it is easier said than done tell yourself to stop hating and just get over it. It’ll take practise but you can still get there. Life is hard, don’t let something so insignificant destroy that.

Once you are gone the earth will continue to spin, do you really want to let negativity slowly consume you when the world has already moved on?

I can help you release the hate if you are willing to listen. Only if you want to change your thoughts and feelings.

But I cannot tell you this, you need to realise it yourself.